My message is this
If you are someone who has been behaving badly or feels pity on their health dont be blaming to the whole world about your problems on why you are sick. You cant also be telling someone that your parent nor anyone is good for any of your family members and making falsely accusations.
No matter how long they havent seriouly own up their apology and addressing they should apology everyone else also besides you is unappectable. Bringing stupid gifts and buying something is not going to solve the problem. You deserve a better apology in person or even in video chat. Just because they try to buy something to you and not apologize doesnt mean you need to change yourself and deal with new people. You need more than that and that something they dont see the way you see.
If your made the mistakes and want a 2nd chance let yourself be helped by getting help not from a hook up or a new relationship nor partying with dumb random people. Reach out to someone that knows you well. Heal yourself and then you can come to that person and get forgiveness. Thats called growing up.
If is your fault and not that person same as above
In my case my aunt hasnt chanced after 2.5 years and still no reconciliation. Past few months i wanted closure and not look back and not getting one after not getting a prior apology from last year.
I have faith you’ll get forgiveness from whoever it is and talk again. Maybe this time around it’ll be better not toxic you know.
Take care everyone and stay safe